Somebody

All these memories are burning me alive
What you said, those names you told me I was
but I'm not.
The nights I spent crying hoping to just end my life.
To just be done with you,to be done with everyone;
Not another painful memory to go to my head, to remember what it felt like to be hurt, abused, talked about and pushed around.
Another night in my room, crying with memories of you, of me.

The scars are still there, I see them.
They're only noticeable if you look close enough.
I'm okay, I tell myself this everyday;
The pains gone, you're safe now.
They can see right through me, transparent, now I know the meaning.
Nobody, I have nobody.
Lies keep attacking me, nobody cares.
You're in this alone, they don't want to hear you're cry for help.
My life was meaningless.

The real me was there, looking for a way out.
Seeking motivation;
Realizing, I'm here for a reason.
end it, just quit...The lies return.
Stay strong, reminding myself who I am.
Who i want to be, "The Somebody"
I am someone, look in the mirror and see, I am a girl.
cared by somebody, thats all that matters.
To end it would hurt them, I have to stay strong.

Chin up, walking through a hall of people, people who notice.
I am somebody, you see...

Happiness has taken over.



Dear Jen, you're blog is coming soon..still not done writing it. :)