Last night, we walked.
Talked about the old times, the summers when we were best friends.
Although we didn't get into any deep conversation it was a start.
I miss you but I really love how far I've come since then.
I don't plan on going back.
So we walked, and as I stepped closer to the skatepark..
I saw my old life, who I used to be before I gave my life to Christ.
I would spend all my time there if I could.
They knew me and called me over..
As I stepped on that concrete to talk to a few old friends I saw who I used to be.
That girl, so desperate for attention.
the one who hung out with all the wrong people, the one who just wanted to fit in.
I remember that time,
The first time you got high.
How could I forget?
It brought me back to the first time we met.
But also reminded me how much I didn't want that life.
So I sat there, still so desperate to be seen.
I dated practically any guy who would ask me out..
Yah, I was that girl. The one who would go through 3 guys every month.
Unaware that all they wanted was, everything I wasn't.
Ending it after a week.
Kind of funny how they don't care about me anymore.
Many people think I'm weak,
just so you know..I'm not, I'm so far from weak.
You see, if I were weak..I would have started smoking and doing drugs, just like my old friends,
If I were weak, I wouldn't be living. If I were weak I would have givin into all that peer pressure. I wouldn't be where I'm at today. If I were weak, I would be the kid walking by that skatepark asking for a smoke.
I'd be the girl, waking up in the morning and not wanting to do it again..but still, love that numb feeling you get out of it.
If I were weak..
But I'm not, call me weak..And i'll give you reasons why I am strong.
I'm Christian now, living my life for Christ.
I gave that life up, I found where I fit in..
I don't want to go back.
Some people think it's impossible to be drunk in the spirit, well..I tell you, it's soo possible.
Weirdest/BEST feeling ever. you don't even get the hangover.
Just a thought going through my mind.
Thought it would make me feel better if I wrote it down.
That's really cool to see how God took hold of you and changed your heart!
ReplyDeleteDon't forget to rely on God's strength! His strength is sufficient where our's only lasts for a time. Through his strength we can over come anything!
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.