Tuesday, December 28, 2010

You're Not Alone.

It's been a pretty messed up month.

I know many people go through alot worse things,
losing two friends to suicide really messes with my mind i guess you can say.
Being real though, it made me think about things that I don't want to think of,
like what it would be like if i were to just disappear, who would care?

These questions are stupid, I know for sure, one person would care.

I'm not alone, and through the hard times ill remember.

Monday, December 27, 2010

It's Dark, But I can see

Looking outside i can see
that beauty is all around me.

Watch the sky become dark,
watch the light of the cities appear and all the stars sparkle.
That light, I can see is a city where you are, from here it looks close,
but in reality, your so far away.
I'll sit and think about what it would be like to be in that city of lights,
to see your face, to watch you smile.
I'm so close to getting out of here,
A chance maybe to see you again.

We will find a way, I'll find my way to that light.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Im broke, But i'm not broken

I thought I was going to be happier,
Knowing this is what God wants..

Theres a piece of me that wants to take it back,
to be with you, to sit and look at you,
knowing you are the one.

I still get that same answer..
but I question it.
You moved on, so it seems
Sadly, I can't get you off my mind.

So until that day you understand,
I guess ill keep acting like we were never together..
that all this time, we were just friends..

well, I love you bud.

I hope soon, you will understand.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Daniel James Edler.

You loved my eyes,
I loved your smile,
I miss that smile.
The moments you were content,
The memories we spent
The jokes you told
The times we spent with laughter,
Not caring what they thought about us.
Could I be the one to cut the rope? to save your life because I know your supposed to be here.
You are loved Danny Edler, you are missed more than you could imagine.
You said you didnt want to disappoint me, ive never been so disappointed.
I don't know why, you would take your own life, but I wish I was there to help you, to tell you how special you are.
Rest In Peace my dear friend..

Monday, December 13, 2010

This imperfection.

It's not you're fault, so please stop you're crying.
We have better things to think about then this
You blame yourself for things that don't make sense.
But when you think about it, we're all to blame.
We treat people like they're windows, transparent, and at times..completely disgusting.
When really, we're more like mirrors,
When you look in a mirror and see you're reflection,
"They judge me all the time," look in the mirror and see
that exact same person looking back at you..
Pointing out every imperfection in you.
We do not deserve this, to be judged and torn to pieces by hurtful words.
But thats not our biggest problem,
We tend to judge ourselves, looking at every flaw and trying our best to be accepted.
This selfconsciousness takes away from our lives more than you think.
One little imperfection, and we stop being ourselves and start trying to fix ourselves.

It shouldn't be this way
I'm done caring, it's time to be me.


From the start, it was like we were best friends, randomly dancing with someone I didn't really knw made me happy.
From our first conversation to becoming amazing friends for a long time, we had our difficult times but I'm so happy were friends again. I love our deep converations, and still love dancing. The things we've been through are awesome, being baptized on the same night, pursuit, yc, all those amazing things, amazing memories..

You're an absolute blessing and joy in my life, Promise we will be friends forever? THANKS.
You're friend,