Monday, February 28, 2011

Don't tell me you're day is good, when I know it wasn't even close.

A tear falls down each time I think about it.
Someone ending their life.
I love and miss you guys so much.
Jesse Jeffrey
Danny Edler

You two were meant to be here..I should be talking to you right now.
Oh how I would love a second chance to talk, to see you're smile..
This isn't the way its supposed to be.
Death makes you realize things..

Sunday, February 27, 2011

I might be crazy, but im just being me.

You're someone I can see myself with in the future..
But I understand you have no interest in me.
Ahh this always happens to me.

I will trust in you God, to help me find the guy you want me to be with..
and I'm hoping you're the one.

A Hug Is Well Needed..

I can't focus..
School is stressing me out
The pressure to be perfect is put back on me.
I just want to hide, away from everyone..
I need time alone, just to figure things out.

Honestly, whenever I think about going back to school all this stress comes back and I feel like smashing my head against a wall.
I know that wont work but for some reason I feel like it would.
My mind is filled with alot right now, it's too much to write at the moment..
I wish you were here..

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Would you care?

Can you see me?
Standing there lost in the crowd.
Looking for a way out..

I'm searching for a friend, or at least someone to care.
Someone to finally say I'm here, for good.
A friend that understands the person that I am.

I thought, maybe for a second that I finally found you..
I know you care. At times, I second guess that.
It might just be me, maybe I don't understand, I can't see..
When I feel lonely, It's you I want beside me..

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I should have when i had the chance..

It's been too long and I miss you.
I am excited to know you, to sit and talk..
To know what goes through your mind.
A chance to finally listen.
One day..

A weekend to Just Dance

This weekend, I danced..
I finally danced, and learned from the best.
I forgot how difficult it was, I felt weak and untrained.
The crowd was big, the space was small.
Taking one breath at a time.
I grew weaker.
Finally I took my time, I sat down and watched the choreography, try to match up with that.
Sitting there, I realized this weekend was about learning to just dance.
There was nobody to impress, just me.
When I got home, I danced.
It was more beautiful then I had ever danced.
Although I didn't understand it then, I understand it now.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

A birthday, celebrated without you..

A question we all ask, why?
This still confuses me, I don't understand death as well as I should.
I know people live and they die, I don't get the real reason why.
Losing a friend is difficult, I didn't expect that.
All I know is I love you bud
Happy 18th birthday, I wish you were here to celebrate it with us.
I'll make sure to live each day like it was my last.

Rest in peace my dear friend.